Reflecting on the Past Year

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Hi everyone!

It hit me a few hours ago what today was… May 19th, the day I was supposed to take the MCAT. Instead, I ran around getting everything ready for my upcoming trip to a medical school for a program specifically for pre-professional students. I will give a recap of that next week when I get back!

Honestly, I feel a little sad. Today was supposed to be the day I finally tackled the big exam. I was supposed to be done by now, I think, and look forward to my next adventure, which was supposed to be my med school application.

I felt terrible when I decided to put it off again. Like I had failed, like I couldn’t put in the effort to study. I also felt relieved, because I had more time to prepare.

I still feel that way. I know I wouldn’t have been ready on time, and I knew I was putting too much on my plate. How was I going to study 35+ hours a week, go to school part time, and take care of two toddlers? I’m sure there are some amazing people out there that could do it, and I admire you all if you have gone through this. You are incredibly strong and determined! But for me, it just wasn’t going to work out. I needed to put as much study time as I could on my classes, and I was already struggling to give my sons the attention they deserved. I know it’s not gonna be easy, it never will be, but with how little my boys were/are, I knew made the right decision for me and my family.

Do I feel guilty? Yes. Am I at peace with my decision? Not ready, but I believe things happen for a reason. Maybe there is something else I’m supposed to do first. Maybe putting it off and applying to post-baccs was the right decision for me. Maybe improving my GPA and getting a Master’s will benefit my application in the long run.

So yes, I’m a little sad, but the path to medical school isn’t always linear. It’s a marathon, uphill, with many obstacles in the way. It’s okay to take longer than most… Time will pass anyway!

Here’s to another year of growth, and here’s to knowing that I WILL take the MCAT by this time next year.

Never give up!

Andrea.

PS: I applied to four total grad schools. The last two have all my application materials! I’m so excited! The first two still don’t have the letters, but I’ll continue to work on it. Fingers crossed!

Updates

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Hi everyone,

I have some awesome news to share. I got an A- on my O-Chem exam! I followed the plan I outline in my last post and it helped so much! I’m really excited. My grade in class has gone up from a D+ to a C+, which is not a great grade but it’s something I can definitely improve on, especially because my professor drops our lowest exam score. Once he does at the end of the semester, my grade will be much better, since my lowest score so far was a 61. I’m going to continue studying so I can make sure my grade remains high.

Now comes the interesting part. As I’ve mentioned before, I’m signed up to take the MCAT on May 19th. I signed up two days ago for a prep course through Altius Test Prep. I’ve been reviewing content on my own since August on and off, but I knew I would need something more structure to prepare at some point. Finances are tricky though, so it took me longer to sign up than I was expecting.

I was excited and ready, until I looked at their introduction. I knew the course would be difficult, and I knew it would take time, but what scared me was how advanced their other students are compared to me. I’ll start a little over a month AFTER their short track students. Surprisingly, they say that they won’t accept students later than the beginning of February, but I was still allowed to join a group. I’m worried that I won’t be ready by May, and I thought about pushing back the MCAT for another month to have more time to prepare.

I kept reading what they gave me. The time commitment, the things that need to get done… and honestly, I panicked a little. I don’t think I can finish all of that in under three months. I’m seriously considering pushing the MCAT until next April. I won’t be taking classes so I would be able to concentrate on studying for it. However, that means I’ll have to postpone applying to medical school yet another year.

Honestly, postponing it wouldn’t be the end of the world. I could ensure I’m more competitive by having a strong MCAT. However, I would have to contact everyone that wrote my letters of recommendation and asking them to change the date on them, again. It’s been difficult to do that already, since some people are more cooperative than others. I’m still waiting on one for this year, and another one that should’ve been written by now but hasn’t. It’s discouraging. Additionally, I’ll lose a lot of volunteering, shadowing, and patient exposure hours. What I mean by this is that my advisor let me know that only extracurricular activities from the last four years will count. Since I’ve been pre-med for such a long time, a bulk of my hours came from 2013, which won’t count if I apply in 2017. I’ve been looking for info about this from the actual AAMC website but I couldn’t find anything about it, so it’s difficult for me to make a decision.

I’m going to wait a few days and think it over. I’ll wait until my tutor contacts me and I get a better idea of what this program will require. If I feel like it can be done, I’ll stick with it. Otherwise, I will get a refund and start the program in the Fall.

I’ll keep you guys posted. If anyone knows anything about the four year extracurricular cap I mentioned, please let me know! It would help me out a lot!

I do have another update that I’m afraid is the worst of them all. The hospice patient I’ve been visiting for the past year and a half passed away on Wednesday. I’m usually sad when my patients pass away, but I cried over this loss. He had become a good friend and I learned so much from him. He was an amazing person who will be sorely missed; he wrote a book about his life, which was really interesting, just so he could donate all the profits to charity.

RIP Walter. We will all miss you; from the happy “Hellooooo” you gave when you answered the phone and the “wunderbar” answer you gave when asked how you were doing. I will always remember you and the lessons you taught me about life. Thank you for everything.

Andrea.

Midyear Update

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Hi everyone!

Sorry it’s been so long since I’ve updated this; life has gotten busy! First of all, I graduated! I even managed a 4.0 during my last semester. That A in Biochem was difficult but I did it! I even got close enough to my professor to ask for a letter of recommendation. 🙂

Unfortunately, I’m not done with that school and pre-med classes. I had to change my schedule to be able to graduate before my financial aid ran out, so I still have O-Chem II and Physics II to go through. I planned on taking O-Chem this summer and Physics this fall, but after a day in O-Chem I realized I wasn’t ready to take it. When I looked back at my transcript I realized it had been two years since I took O-Chem I and Physics I. I didn’t want to bring down my GPA, so I decided to drop the class and re-take O-Chem I and Physics I this fall. That means O-Chem II and Physics II will happen in the spring. After that I’ll be done with my pre-med classes, yay!

I’m not sure if I’ll take the MCAT next year, but I feel if I don’t do it now I’ll never do it. Taking it will make it much easier to apply to post-bacc programs as well, and the ones with the best programs require either the MCAT or GRE. I decided because of this that I will start studying tonight. I still plan on taking a course, but I’m not sure of the timeline. Most post-bacc program deadlines are in January or February, but I would like to take the MCAT in May so I have enough time to prepare. I think I’ll make an excel sheet with information about the schools and their deadlines. I think if most of them are later in the year, I’ll take the MCAT closer to May. If not, I’ll take it closer to January if I feel ready. I wish more deadlines were closer to June, but I understand schools need time to fill their classes for fall.

I’m hoping to start a post-bac program next fall. My husband and I are already planning a move out of our state, since there aren’t any programs available here. I’m so ready to move on, but I am kind of nervous. I’m mostly nervous about getting into a program; I still have doubts about being smart enough. I know I’m not the perfect student, but I have worked extremely hard for this, and I will continue to do so. I guess it’s just hard to believe in yourself, at least it is for me.

Besides MCAT and classes, I need to find a job as a CNA to get more patient exposure. I had one for a week, but the schedule wasn’t working out and I didn’t enjoy it as much as I thought. I decided I’ll look for a job at the hospital close to my university, the one I had my boys at, to make it easier to go from school to work. It’s also much closer than the other job, so it’ll save on gas.

I’m also still volunteering at a hospice, and I have plans to go back to Big Brothers Big Sisters this school year. However, since I need another leadership experience, I might need to stop BBBS and find something else. I was planning on using hospice as patient exposure, but since I can work as a CNA I was thinking of using that instead so hospice can be my medical-related volunteer experience. If not, I need to find another medical-related experience, and fast. I’m not sure what I should do, or how to fit it all in my schedule, so I may need to talk to my advisor first.

Anyway, I think that’s all I can think of. Life is going well, for the most part. Hope you’re all doing well! Hopefully I’ll have some time to update this more often. 🙂

Andrea.

Latest Semester

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Hi everyone,

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything. I keep thinking about what to write but never have enough motivation. I’ve been feeling kinda down this semester; it’s been a very difficult one. Finals are coming up and I’m getting nervous.

My Cell Biology course is going horribly. I haven’t done this poorly in a class in years. I feel like I know the subject, but I hesitate at the last minute and change my answer. Since my professor has the multiple choice section be worth three points per question, missing a few really messes up your grade. The lab isn’t any easier; we have a different instructor for it. She’s notorious for being a harsh grader. We do these literature labs where we read a scientific paper she chooses and then we have to summarize it based on one of the figures. She expects us to write at a PhD level to get full points and makes the average for the class be a B-. Needless to say, I don’t do very well in these. It makes me incredibly mad at me. I know I can do better, but I don’t understand what she wants. I dunno if maybe it’s a language thing; I’ve lived in this country for almost 12 years and although I hardly ever have trouble with it, scientific papers take me a while to comprehend. She’s also extremely intelligent so the way she words her questions during quizzes confuses me sometimes. This is no excuse for me doing so poorly, I should be able to study more and do better. If I can get a C in the class, it’ll be a miracle.

Anatomy is going okay. I should end with a B in the class if everything continues to go the way it is. It makes me a little sad because I really wanted an A, but since I can’t live in the cadaver lab due to needing to be home and care for my boys, I think it’s an okay grade. I didn’t do so well on my last exam so my class grade dropped to a C+, but we still have the lab grade to consider and two more exams for lecture. I plan on talking to my professor about the questions I missed so I can do better on the cumulitative final. I really love the class though, and the cadaver lab is extremely cool. I have loves everything we have learned about and I will be forever grateful for those who donate their body to science so we may learn it and help others. My instructor for lecture used to be a surgeon, so he always has interesting stories to tell. He also cracks jokes all the time which makes the class even more enjoyable.

My Research Methods class is okay too. I have a B currently and my research project is under way. Unfortunately I had to change it at the last minute, so I’m not doing anything related to sign language like I wanted to. I also realized there may be a mistake in the data collection so I may not have any valid data to analyze. This really bums me out because I have to do a final paper and presentation on it before the end of the semester… which is about 3 weeks away. I have to talk to my professor about it and see what we can do.

Oh and I dropped Biochem because I couldn’t give it the attention it deserved.

Lastly, I signed up for the MCAT for May 14th. I’m taking the rest of my pre-med classes next semester; Biochem I, O-Chem II, and Physics II. However, I’m unsure about the professors. I’ve taken a class from one of them before and her teaching style and my learning style didn’t match. The other professor is known for not being a great one… most students just skip the class until they can take it from the only other professor that teaches it. Since I’m graduating soon, I don’t have that option unless I drop a class, which is the one with the other professor I’m unsure about.

I was planning on graduating, taking the MCAT, and applying to a post-bac program that focuses on academic enhancement. However, because of how difficult it is to study and take care of my little ones, and because of the professors I’ll have to take classes from, I think I may put off the MCAT another year. I may drop those classes, take maybe one with a few “easier” ones to help keep up my GPA, and apply to a post-bac that focuses on career-changers since I have a major in Psychology instead of a “science” one. I can take the rest of my classes then, take an extra two years, take the MCAT somewhere along the line, and make sure my husband has his degree so he can support us/work from home so I don’t have to worry about my twins being home without one of us. I have to run it by my advisor before I make my final decision, but it seems at this point in time it’s the right one.

I think this will calm me down, give my time to boost my GPA, spent time with my twins, study for the MCAT, finish my pre-med classes, and give me a bit of my sanity. School will always be there. Who cares if I’m 40 before I can practice, right?

Right?

Wish me luck.

Andrea.

Late Afternoon Thoughts

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Hi everyone,

Today’s post will be a little different. There’s something that’s been on my mind lately that I’m hoping some of you out there will be able to help with.

I’ve been struggling this summer a bit. I haven’t gotten back to my volunteering or shadowing, let alone studying the way I wanted to. I feel like I’ve been stuck in this “shame spiral” my neuro professor talked to me about. I can’t bring myself to call anyone to set anything up because I’m afraid to leave my twins home, even if the person watching them is someone I trust (husband, mum, aunt, etc). Studying is difficult because they always need something (like any normal baby) and they like to take turns. By the time they sleep, it’s time for me to sleep so I can get up and take care of them.

I have two semesters left before I graduate, so the classes I’ll be taking are difficult and aren’t offered online. I also need to find a job during the weekends to help support my family. I’m worried that I won’t be able to keep up with everything… Then those thoughts turn to medical school and residency. I know I wouldn’t want to do anything else, so I’ll keep pursuing my dream to be a doctor, but maybe surgery isn’t the way to go. Maybe a specialty that isn’t as demanding would work better for my family. But what if I fall in love with surgery? Would I be able to balance it? I know it’s far enough away and that I shouldn’t worry, especially since I haven’t even gotten into med school, but I guess this is the kinda thing you worry about when you’re a parent or maybe just when you’re me.

To all working parents out there, how do you do it? How do you find balance? If you are a doctor, did you consider what field to go into if you had/have children? I could use some advice.

Thanks in advance and sorry for the rant.

Andrea.

MCAT Study Schedule

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Hi everyone,

I started studying for the MCAT today. Since I don’t have a ton of time, I’ve decided to study one hour a day during the summer. During the weekends I will probably increase it to two hours a day. It’s not a lot but since I’m about a year away from taking it, I figured this is a good way to start.

Wish me luck!

Andrea.

PS: This is the only way I’m allowed to study. Better than not getting anything done, right? This little one is Syrus, the oldest. Sirius is sleeping peacefully on his crib. The dog in the background is Harry; he thinks he’s their babysitter.

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The Beginning of Summer

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Hi everyone,

So final grades are in… straight A’s! My very first 4.0 in college! I was very excited when I found out. It was definitely a hard semester and I’m SO glad it’s over. As excited as I am about this 4.0, I’m also very nervous that I won’t be able to pull off another one I’m taking hard classes during the upcoming school-year, and I really don’t want med school admission committees to think I’m a bad student…

Now that I have literally nothing to do all summer, I’m looking for ways to keep myself entertained and still making progress in my pre-med journey. I was able to get a hold of my volunteer coordinator for hospice so I’ll be getting a new patient to go visit soon! I’m very excited because it’s been a year since I’ve had a patient. I also need to find another animal shelter to volunteer at; I miss being around furry little critters! I have two cats but I still miss being around kitties that need my help to find a home.

I’m also set to shadow the doctor that delivered my twins and became my friend along the way; I just have to get some blood work done that proves I had varicella so I can start. She’s finishing her residency soon, so I will only be able to shadow her for a short amount of time. Anything I can learn from her is appreciated though, so I’m excited.

That actually reminds me… I was able to attend a surgical conference in a city close to where I live this month. I went last year for the first time and I fell in love with it, probably because it had a neurology/neurosurgery theme. This year it was all about family practice and it was equally interesting. I learned a lot, but my favorite lecture covered Malaria. I honestly did not know anything beyond being transmitted by mosquitoes; I wish I could tell you about it with more detail, but it was a lunch lecture so I was not able to take notes and I don’t want to misquote anything. The one thing I know is that I came out of the lecture wishing I could do something to help get rid of it… but I think that happened with every disease they talked about ha ha.

Back to what I’ll be doing this summer… I wasn’t able to get a hold of my match specialist for Big Brothers Big Sisters before the program for the school I volunteered at ended for the year, so I’ll have to wait till September before I can rejoin the program. That’s okay though, because it’ll give me time to settle into the huge amount at least that’s what it feels like of extracurricular activities I take a part of!

As far as studying for the MCAT goes, I bought this book to start studying. I wanted a book that will go over the concepts as a review but also give me some practice tests and lots of examples. This one was the only one that had all of that at my local B&N, so I’m hoping it will be a good review. I eventually plan on buying this book once I’m done with the first one. I really need want a really high score, so I’m hoping the second review will help. I’ll let you guys know what I think of them as I work through them and if they were helpful/worth it. On top of all that, I really want to take a practice course in about six months. They’re really expensive though, so I’m not sure if I will be able to do it. I’m really nervous about this test… I had no idea that the highest score was a 528! 528?! Does anyone know what a “competitive” score is?! I know that you wanted to aim for at least a 30 in the last version, but I have no idea what it could be for this one. I think the fact that it’s a higher number makes me more nervous; I dunno if there’s a psychological reason behind it, but a 40 seemed easier to accomplished than a 528. Does anyone else feel this way, or am I crazy?

But anyway, the last thing on my to-do list for the summer… if you read a few of my entries from last year I talked about becoming a CNA. I finished the course and everything, but I wasn’t able to get certified due to my pregnancy. I have until October to become certified if I want to work in a hospital setting, so I’m going to start studying and take my certification exam as soon as possible. It’s been a while since class and clinicals,so I hope that most of it will be review and not re-learning everything… Ideally I would like to work at the hospital where I delivered because I loved their level of care and want to be in the type of environment where the patients are treated with utmost respect. I think I would enjoy working in postpartum, but I wouldn’t mind the NICU. I’d be happy anywhere though, so I really hope I’m good enough to work there!

That’s pretty much all I’m planning to do this summer, besides taking a vacation to my favorite state, Washington! I absolutely love the beach and the trees are beautiful. The rain is also very calming, so it’s just the perfect place for me. Oh, and they have stratovolcanoes! I’m kind of obsessed with volcanoes since I learned about them in geology last semester, so living next to them would be a dream as long as they don’t erupt. I tried getting a hold of their med school last year when I went to visit but I wasn’t able to, so I’m hoping to do that this year and see if it’s possible to take a tour or at least talk to someone in the administration to see what I need to do to be a strong candidate for their school. I’m extremely excited for this trip and I can’t wait to see all my friends! Washington feels more like home than the state I currently live in, so I always feel like I’m coming home when I travel there.

It’s going to be a great summer!

Wish me luck!

Andrea.

Long Time No Talk

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Hi everyone!

It’s been a while since I posted anything… the twins are taking up all my time! So here I am… Finally a mother to two beautiful little boys that were born at 33 weeks and 5 days on February 3rd, 2015 and stayed in the NICU for 3 weeks and 2 days. They are now almost 11 weeks and they are absolutely perfect. They are relatively healthy and don’t seem to have any developmental delays so far. Life couldn’t be more perfect… although it is challenging.

School wise, Spring semester is almost over! It’s been so challenging to keep up with everything while taking care of the boys. I’m somehow managing to do well in all my classes… which is beyond me. I don’t know how I’m keeping up with it… I guess I just work better under pressure. 🙂

Since being pregnant I haven’t had any done any extracurricular activities. I hadn’t found a new hospice patient, I didn’t hear back about getting a new Little, and I quit the shelter because of the risk of toxoplasmosis. I was going to shadow doctors while being at the hospital but with everything going on we decided it was too much for. I haven’t even gotten certified as a CNA because I couldn’t lift the mannequins by the time I finished the class.

To be honest, I’m worried about how that will look on my application. Four years of volunteering and suddenly… nothing. Volunteering has become a part of who I am, so it was hard for me to go from doing everything to nothing. I’m waiting until the semester is over to start back up; I wanted to give myself time to recover from my C-section and spend time with the twins. For some reason I’m really nervous about it; I think it’s much harder to start back up once you’ve stopped and I’ve forgotten that it’s nothing to worry about.

I think it’ll be okay though. I just have to have courage and be kind… and yes, Cinderella was a fantastic movie and that is my new motto. Seriously, I even have a necklace that says it and I wear it everyday! As soon as school is over I’m going to study and get certified as a CNA. Everyone at the hospital I stayed at told me to apply after I had the twins, so I hope I’ll be able to work there. I’d love to see everyone again and help them as much as they helped me. I’m also going to bother my volunteer coordinator and get another hospice patient to visit… I’ve missed doing it. I also want to find another child to mentor, so I’m also going to bother my match specialist Is that what we call them? I don’t remember anymore and see if I can find a new Little. I’m a little worried about being around so many kids… I don’t want to get sick and get my premature sons sick. I think as long as I wash my hands often it’ll be okay, but I guess being overprotective and overly worried just comes with the territory. 🙂 I’m also going to find another shelter to volunteer at; there’s a kitten nursery that they have in a city relatively close to where I live, so I would love to get a chance to help out!

The last thing I plan on doing is shadowing; I’ll be calling my doctor and set up a time and date to follow her around the clinic. She’s probably the best doctor I’ve had and I can’t wait to learn from her. She’s a family medicine resident and she will be doing an OB fellowship this year after her residency is over. I’m very curious about why she chose that path; I think it’s awesome that she gets to see all kinds of cases and then deliver babies. I guess it’s just another thing for me to consider in the long list of specialties I want to pursue…

Speaking of specialties I want to go intk… the list goes something like neurosurgery at the top, family medicine, pediatrics, perinatology, neonatology, neurology, and psychiatry in no particular order. I think the more I learn about medicine the more things I want to do!

Since I put off the MCAT and applying to med school until next year I haven’t started studying for the “big test.” I’m now a little over a year away from taking it, so it’s time to start studying! I have a set of MCAT flashcards that I’m taking with me everywhere so I can look them over. I’m also gonna find a study guide and start studying a few hours a week. Once I’m about six months away from the test date I plan to take one of those Kaplan or Altius courses to help me study. I’m going to work really hard so I can make sure I earn a high score. The though of it is really exciting but also nerve-wracking… my journey as a pre-med student is almost over!

Anyway… there’s my update. I’ll try to come back and make another one after finals. Hopefully by then I’ll be certified as a nurse assistant and be well on my way to finding a job!

Wish me luck!

Andrea.

Fall Semester

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Hi everyone!

I’ve been in school for a month now! So far everything’s going really well; all A’s (counting A-‘s) with maybe a B+. My Stats professor doesn’t post the grades online, but I know it’s between an A- and a B+.

First things first, I want to let you all know why I decided to postpone my MCAT and med school application…

We’re having a baby! My husband and I are expecting our first child March 19th 2015! 🙂 Although this is a very exciting time for us (and it’s been rough on me since I’ve been so sick) this means I have to put the MCAT and med school on hold temporarily. Taking/studying fot the MCAT while taking care of a newborn won’t be easy, which is why I’ve taken this decision. It’ll give me more time to prepare for it though, so I’m not too disappointed.

Okay, back to school stuff! I decided to drop O-Chem. I just wasn’t going to be able to dedicate the time needed for it while being sick, so I opted for a Social Psych class instead. I may or may not retake it in the future, but for now, I will just try to move on and finish my other pre-reqs. Besides the Social Psych class I’m taking Intro to Neuro, Neuropsychopharmacology (try saying that 10 times fast), and Statistics in Psychology. They’re all very interesting classes, but most of them are not easy. It’s a lot of information at once, and keeping up with it all is difficult (but not impossible).

I think Intro to Neuro is my favorite class, but I also enjoy Neuropsychopharmacology. They both are covering the same type of material so far, so it makes it easy to study for the exams. That will probably change soon though. A cool thing we’re doing next week in my Neuro is sheep brain dissections! I’ve done it once before so I’m excited to do it again! Brains are just amazing and every time I get to be around them it fills me with joy. I know… I’m weird. 🙂

That’s basically all I’ve been up to. I hope I have time to write more often, but I highly doubt it. I’ll aim for one or two a month at the least, but once the semester ends I’ll be able to post more often. 🙂

Have a great school year!

Andrea.

Life Is a Rollercoaster

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Hi everyone!

First of all, I’m terribly sorry for taking so long to write another post. I’ve been extremely sick for the past few weeks and the only thing I’ve been able to do is stay in bed and be miserable. I’m feeling slightly better after going to the doctor, so I hope I’ll be around more often.

School starts on the 25th! I’m not ready for summer to be over yet! I’ll be re-taking O-Chem as well as taking Intro to Neuroscience, Drugs and Behavior (psych class), and Statistics in Psychology. I’m not extremely worried about the neuro and psych classes; they come fairly easily to me, but I’m terrified of O-Chem. It’s not really that hard of a subject, it just requires a lot of time and practice, which I KNOW I didn’t do enough of the first time around, even though I dedicated around 4-5 hours daily to it. I guess it just takes me a little longer to understand concepts completely. I’m actually going against my advisor’s wishes and re-taking it; he told me it’s best not to re-take a class unless you absolutely have to (and you can get an A). I’m not sure if I can get an A, but I’m going to aim for an A-. I’m re-taking it from the same professor, so at least I know what to expect. I just have to come up with a better way to study the material.

As you all know, I want planning on taking the MCAT in May and applying to medical school in June of next year. Due to some unforeseen circumstances, I am pushing back my MCAT and medical school application. I have yet to speak to my advisor about it, but when I do, I will let you all know when I will be taking the MCAT. I still plan on graduating on Spring 2016, so I will probably be applying June 2016. If I get accepted, I’ll use the year before medical school to do some research and volunteer. I’m a little discouraged that I have to take even longer than I wanted to, but I’m also relieved; I’ll have more time to finish all my classes and study for the MCAT. At this time I’m afraid I can’t share the reason why I’m postponing it an extra year, but if you wait a few weeks you will find out. 🙂

It’s all about the journey. Sometimes we just have to take a step back and realize it’s okay to slow down. It doesn’t matter how long it takes me, I will get there one day.

Wish me luck!

Andrea.