It looks like ~two years is the sweet spot for me updating this. š
Wow. So much has happened since. Where to even begin?
Oh, I know. How aboutā¦
IāM GOING TO BE A SURGEON!
But letās not get ahead of ourselves.
Where we left off⦠I started, and finished, my second third year, core rotations, and my fellowship. Being a senior fellow was hard. I had a great group and my co-fellow and juniors were amazing. There was a lot of self-discovery and finding out my teaching style. The biggest thing I learned was how much academia isnāt for me. Thereās too much behind the scenes that I didnāt care for. The best part (besides my co-fellows)? My students. I LOVE (most of) THEM. They are the most precious angels and must be protected at all costs. I also got so much better at OMT. Like I felt like a true wizard. I would find something off, like a tight back muscle, poke something and say, āDoes this hurt?ā And theyād flinch and say yes and Iād say, āYeah, I figured.ā And then I would treat it and itād go away. I had my own approach to OMT and mixed a lot of methods with great results. It was a wonderful time that I wouldnāt change for the world, but I am glad itās over. I was ready to move on and go on to fourth year.
Oh, remember my dog that was lost? We caught him after almost four months of being lost in the desert. It was grueling. I was unwell.
Now⦠he likely has an osteosarcoma and his prognosis isnāt good. It seems to have spread everywhere and we were given two months with him. Heās stable for now, but he had a bone biopsy last week to rule out cancer vs osteomyelitis. Iām not optimistic, but we have to wait till Monday to find out the results.
By the way, this is a very quick overview. I have kept a lot of my day to day life over on insta, so check that out if you want more details of my rotations or how fourth year went!
Oh, fourth year. Fourth year best and worst year. Itās been STRESSFUL but all my hard work paid off!
Okay, okay, I wonāt leave you hanging⦠for long.
During my second block of surgery, I told my attending (a general surgeon) that I was interested in OBGYN. I hadnāt decided yet, because my core was truthfully nothing to write home about. I scrubbed in on my last day, did 1 Pap smear the entire four weeks, and I didnāt deliver any babies. The next day, he sent me to do gyn cases with a colleague. It was the coolest day! The next week, he was out of the office and we could pick what we wanted to do. His PA, bless him, asked his OBGYN attending from back when he did rotations if I could scrub in with her. Well she said yes! And she happened to be my old OBGYN before I moved out of state for my Masterās. š
This woman is my role model. She is the kind of doctor I want to be like. We had the best two days in the OR and after hearing about my OB core she told me to do my elective with her in May. I wanted to cry! I was so excited! So I set it up, excited for the following year (my surg rotation was in Oct).
After fellowship and taking Level 2 (I improved so much from Level 1 by the way), I showed up to my gyn elective with her.
It changed my life.
She had dropped OB by that point, so I spent most of the month seeing gyn patients and scrubbing in to surgeries. I fell in love. I knew then that I would never do anything else. Her partners let me tag along for some delivered, but only saw 2 (and delivered their placentas). My attending was on call one Saturday and I asked to come in. She had called a C-section and I was able to scrub in and watch.
It was in the same room I had my twins 7 years prior.
It was a full circle moment. I cried. Nothing was ever going to top that feeling. I knew this was the specialty for me. I had already applied to sub-Iās in OB and one FM in case I changed my mind. I ended up cancelling the FM one and signing up for more OB ones. I finished the rotation and my attending offered to write me an LOR. I think I cried and told her I loved her? I also crocheted her a stuffed uterus. She was mad cute. I left that rotation excited to get back to studying for Step 2 and start my audition rotation era.
Step 2 came and went and I did well! I was shocked and excited. I had done terrible during Step 1 and I thought my chances of doing OBGYN were gone. This gave me hope.
By the time I got my results, I was on my last week of my first sub-I. I donāt want to get too much into this because weāll be here all day. I did four sub-Iās and 1 MFM elective where I worked with the residents, so it was kind of a sub-I.
Sub-Iās were hard work but I had a lot of fun! I only had one bad experience and it was, thankfully, only two weeks long. But we wonāt talk about them. If youāre curious, someone posted them on the Reddit Name and Shame. Youāll find it in there.
I met amazing people that have become life long friends. We would text and give each other pep talks or chat about programs/interviews as we went through the interview trail. I heard a lot about how OBGYN was cutthroat and unfriendly, but I donāt think thatās true. There was nothing but support and collaboration between me and fourth year students I worked with (exception: the students I met at that two week audition). Iām glad that most of the women I met (I didnāt do any sub-Iās that had men auditioning at the same time) matched. I know theyāll be amazing OBGYNs (especially my bestie Megan. If youāre reading this, I love you and I wouldnāt have survived with you!)
So sub-Iās came and went and interviews came and went. And one week agoā¦
I matched into my dream specialty! (Click the pic for updates on my medstagram. š©·)
āShe believed she could, so she did.ā
That quote carried me from my O-Chem days. When I failed and struggled and cried, but kept getting back up. I would tell it to myself over and over.
Iāve added another quote that kept me going during interviews. My fellow SJM lovers will get it.
āTo the stars who listen and the dreams that are answered.ā
I wore a necklace with that quote to every. single. interview. I think it brought me luck.
I was in shock. I truly couldnāt believe it. That someone like me, who struggled all throughout med school but worked really hard and tried to improve med it.
ME!
I matched at one of my top choices. Thinking back on my experience with my sub-I and the residents, I know this is the perfect place for me. I vibes well with them and they saw my potential and my worth. I want to cry thinking about it. Iāll forever be grateful that they gave me a chance. I will work hard and show them I was worth taking a chance on.
Iāve been imaging my life there since finding out and Iām just SO EXCITED! I canāt wait. Iām absolutely terrified but I know I picked the right specialty. All my hard work has finally paid off.
Now I just have to survive four years of residency!
And so, we come to the end of the update. Iām in the middle of looking for housing, planning our move, finishing up rotations, and getting ready to graduate May 11th.
Iām finally going to be the doctor I set out to be when I started this back in 2014.
We did it besties.
This girl is FINALLY going to be going from sturgeon to (gyn) surgeon. š©š»āāļø




